|i'm hearing you.
seems to me as the years roll on, the skill level reduces slightly.
if you can hold the bag o tricks you have and are having fun, that in itself is rewarding.
i too have become slightly timid since my collarbone misshap.
just keep giving it your best shot.
my kids/grand kids tell me i'm the worlds oldest teenager,
that makes me very happy.
happy rolling one and all.